17 January 2010
Funny the way it is...
22/01/10 02:24
... it's a Dave Matthews song (I recommend you listen to the song while you read this post:))... I've just listened to it like 6 times in row since I walked in my door... and I keep thinking... why does anyone ever hate on the Dave Matthews Band... he usually gets it right:)... and sometimes he's even perfect... his last album just oozes with joy and pain equally and for some reason... at this moment I am thinking I need music like that...
... just home from a gig... my first with George Victory (www.georgevictory.com)...
It's weird cuz... I'm happy... because I just played a beautiful gig... (even Eddie Standifer showed up... anyone who's seen me play with eddie knows just how perfect he makes a gig... just check out the videos from this past weekend:))...
... but...
... everyone missed it;) (not everyone... there was a bunch of tourists and a strange conglomeration of new and old fans who I thank for being there!)... and I'm not bitching... (trust me, I would have loved to go see Joe Bachman and the Crew last night... but I just needed one night not in a bar and not drinking... so trust me I get it, in Key West it is impossible to support ALL your friends!... you either go broke or you are drunk 7 nights a week... and the only way to maintain some sense of normalness here or get any real creative output is to stay in every once and I while) and I know how many of you came out last weekend:) and I'm know how many of you come to see me wherever and whenever you can:)... and I thank you for that... it's what keeps me playing... but something in me just wishes that I could capture some of these crazy beautiful moments... someday when I'm old I won't remember them... and most likely the few who were there won't remember... so it makes me wonder if they ever truly existed... but that's not really the point I'm going for...
... point is... Me, George and Eddie got our reggae on tonight and I wish more people coulda seen it;)...
... but it comes in waves... and I know that (Thank God)...
... and soon the tide will change... and there will be crazy busy weeks and then empty seats the next... and there will songs one day and then none the next... there will be love and then all these other moments of awkward non-love (we are meant to love and be loved!)... there will be everything til suddenly there is nothing... there will be joy and pain... heaven and hell... etc. etc.... but I will somehow, someway get through...
cuz it comes in waves... that's what you've got to remember... that's what I've got to keep reminding myself... that's just how it is... (the older I get the harder it is to remember and believe)
but all I'm sayin is that...
in these nights... I am realizing I am getting back to my old self... hungry and lonely... (which is a good place for me)
but it doesn't stop me from missing that Bella Luna...
and this small world...
and sunny days...
and the fall...
and broken rivers...
and BC buds...
and surfer's point...
and the Key West homegrown...
and the lost in the waves...
and Jazz and Madu...
and the jock...
and the soldier...
and the poet...
and the musician...
and the lover...
and the dreamer
and everyone I ever was.......
and everyone I might still could be......................
and all i'm saying really is:
it's funny the way it is... (Don't worry Dave, I got you)